Why the hell are you reading this?

suicideinside @ 2006-06-14T03:27:00

2006-06-14T07:21:58Z

Fat chicks with confidence arent strong women...
They're just fat bitches.

Mmmmmm.

suicideinside @ 2005-09-05T13:10:00

2005-09-05T17:06:00Z

I am EMILY on Rita's screen name. Me and Courtney are at her house while Ashley, Derek, and Rita go pick up Patrick. Me and Courtney are going to have sex all over the house. Starting with the kitchen table. All of our girlie left overs are going in the deviled eggs.

suicideinside @ 2005-08-16T14:13:00

2005-08-16T18:07:31Z

Thanks Barrie. I want to listen to hanson now.

suicideinside @ 2005-08-13T11:56:00

2005-08-13T15:50:35Z

GOD DAMN IT IM TIRED

I woke up at 11 this morning.....I dont think that I've ever slept in so late.
But, I DID go to bed at 2:30....hmmmmmmmmmmmm

Holy My

2005-08-13T03:35:31Z

Wow, I really have not updated this in like fifty years....

okay, a few months. what ever.

suicideinside @ 2005-01-23T14:09:00

2005-01-23T19:11:14Z

www.blurty.com/users/thepinkandgreen

All of you, i've turned myself inside out. And destroyed what was left of my skin. Gone from cold hearted metal head hatered filled ass hole, to a little fucking emo softie.......but I still like metal.

Muck muck

suicideinside @ 2005-01-21T20:52:00

2005-01-22T01:55:28Z

Holy shit on my face and call me sally, long time, no update huh? Well just I GOT NEWS! Saturday, Feb. 19th, My house, Cause of Insanity, (possibly) Bravo to atlanta, 5 bucks. Its for a good cause. COI is putting out a new cd, and its nice to help them out for a change. Tickets at door. IM me if you need anything.

IM: Forgetyourmorals
Email: Forgetyourmorals@aol.com

BITCHES!

suicideinside @ 2004-10-04T15:54:00

2004-10-04T19:55:07Z

Im not retarded.

suicideinside @ 2004-10-04T14:53:00

2004-10-04T18:55:45Z

I agree, lets be direct. Yessir.....even though this isnt direct, but it is. Okay.

suicideinside @ 2004-10-03T22:38:00

2004-10-04T02:39:38Z

I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you

suicideinside @ 2004-10-03T15:12:00

2004-10-03T19:23:16Z

This year Halloween falls on a Sunday. I want you to take that anual walk with me around this town. I dont think that anyone around here would mind seeing someone like you. And we'll camp out that night, and Ill make sure you stay warm, theres no need for you to get a cold.

The New England Fall

2004-10-03T13:34:43Z

The things that were around a month ago seem so different now. All of the things that looked dull and boring and just seemed repetitive now seem so fresh and exciting. The walks that I used to have to go on with other people, are now the ones that I must take alone.

To me, each season has a different meaning. Winter is the season to spend with yourself, its the months that you should become high on your own list. The springtime is the season meant to spend with family. Its the time of the year where you start warming up for the upcoming year. The summer is meant to be spent with friends. And to me, autumn is meant to spend with your love. Its the most serious of all seasons, and I believe that its the prettiest and most romantic. Its when the one person you love just becomes more than that. Everything just seems right in autumn. Even if you dont have anyone of those sorts, its still just a wonderful season. The walks are beautiful in my town at this time of year. Its a place made of oranges, reds, yellows and browns. This is the season to make your move before winter stops you. Whether it be makeing a move physically, like actually moving, or to make one on the person you want to be your autumn love. But when you do that in autumn, its a serious love. Because even though most loves get stronger, some break under the pressure, and hearts get torn apart. So enjoy your autumn while its still here and young, but please dont take it as just another season.

suicideinside @ 2004-10-02T23:58:00

2004-10-03T04:25:30Z

I love:

Being able to talk to you for hours on end

being able to tell you anything

sometimes knowing what you're going to say even before you say it

the quick remarks that I cant respond to

the way you dont say anything really on the phone, and just whistle and hum

the way you sing

the song that you sing to me

how you're devoted to your friends

how you go out and talk to your mother

how you're not really afraid to tell me anything

how you passed your dirrrrty genes onto me

how you call me names, like negroid and nigshit

how I can almost feel you smile when we talk

how you never forget that we're going to Venezuela

Your name, and the way that it looks and sounds

the way that we can joke around

everysingle one of our inside jokes

how you dont space out your laughter

how you leave me little notes in your away messages

how we fight

the way you look when you smile

never knowing what adventures you'll tell me about next

the bracelets

the way the green one still smells

how we dream of romantic things

how we're addicted to each other

the way that you say "i love you" on the phone

thw first time we ever talked

everytime we talk

the way your eyes look

hearing stories of you when you were little

how you said "its the twoof"

how everything on this list is coming so naturally

how I never have to second guess anymore

how you've finally made me feel confident

how your hair looks when you've got a hat on

how you're ripped, like jesus

how you said that Brad Pitt could turn you gay

how I go to sleep happy

how I wake up anxious to talk to you

how you're not afraid to ask for help

how you dont want me to say "cute"

every hair on your head

every pore in your skin

every blood cell pumping through you

absolutely everything about you

the sound of your voice

the way I cant stay mad at you

the way each time we fight, this relationship gets stronger.

how my favorite season reminds me of you

how neither of us are willing to make the first move

how we're unsure on where to go from here

how im hoping im right on the last two things

how everything reminds me of you

how you say Im gonna be your wife

how Emily says to me "Jesus christ, you guys are going to end up getting fucking married"

how Im always reluctant to say good bye on the phone

how much I love you.

suicideinside @ 2004-10-02T23:03:00

2004-10-03T03:04:10Z

Captain Kitten,

You are the absolute greatest.

I love love love you.

suicideinside @ 2004-10-02T15:33:00

2004-10-02T19:33:59Z

Got 'chur axon coverings!

suicideinside @ 2004-10-02T15:26:00

2004-10-02T19:27:53Z

"And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me. You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as stars chase you away."

suicideinside @ 2004-10-02T09:31:00

2004-10-02T13:33:13Z

"i just talked to her on the phone for 2 whole hours. i loved every minute of it. even though i just laughed the whole time and talked a quarter of the time. its still awesome. cause i love listening to her go on and on. shes such an angel and amazes me more and more each day. woop. i love everything about her. yup yup. and thats all for now."

And so we fall...

"i was thinking tonight. like after the phone call. and i dunno. i think that my love for you did decrease. although i think it didnt and shit. i think it did. and when i say it sometimes i dont fully mean it. i dont know if im making sense but definitely for sure things have changed since our last few big fights, for me at least. and i think we need to not talk for a bit. and analyze some things. or i need to. maybe this is what we need. sorry..."

It hurts me to know that I understand what your saying. But as it decreased your love for me, it just made mine stronger. And thats why Ill agree to do what you think is the best for you. I love you kitten.

suicideinside @ 2004-10-02T09:24:00

2004-10-02T13:29:12Z

I know what I've got Its not what Im looking for.

suicideinside @ 2004-10-01T14:50:00

2004-10-01T18:50:53Z

I need you like a whore needs cash.

suicideinside @ 2004-10-01T14:47:00

2004-10-01T18:49:49Z

Ripped, you're ripped, like Jesus.

suicideinside @ 2004-09-29T15:10:00

2004-09-29T19:12:47Z

Today I couldnt concentrate on a thing. Every conversation I held somehow reminded me of you, and by the end of the day, I couldnt keep from crying.

The whole time, throughout our fighting, no matter how mad you made me, or how much I cried because of what you said, no matter how bad it all got, I never took back anything I said. Not a single I love you at all. Because I do love you. Even now, after you tricked me like you did, and seriously broke my heart, I still mean that I love you. And I will never take it back. At least one of us shows unconditional love. Because thats what pure love its, its unconditional. I love you so much that im always willing to forget the things either of us say or do. But you're not, so the love between us is there, it just seems to be different types. Im sorry you thought that caring about me was a waste. And yeah, Ill still be there.

I miss you, and I love you.

suicideinside @ 2004-09-29T15:10:00

2004-09-29T19:11:31Z

suicideinside @ 2004-09-29T15:03:00

2004-09-29T19:04:43Z

Today I couldnt concentrate on a thing. Every conversation I held somehow reminded me of you, and by the end of the day, I couldnt keep from crying.

The whole time, throughout our fighting, no matter how mad you made me, or how much I cried because of what you said, no matter how bad it all got, I never took back anythin I said. Not a single I love you at all. Because I do love you. Even now, after you tricked me like you did, and seriously broke my heart, I still mean that I love you. And I will never take it back. At least one of us shows uncondiotional love. Because thats what pure love its, its unconditional. I love you so much that im always willing to forget the things either of us say or do. But you're not, so the love between us is there, it just seems to be different types. Im sorry you thought that caring about me was a waste. And yeah, Ill still be there.

I miss you, and I love you.

suicideinside @ 2004-09-29T14:55:00

2004-09-29T19:00:36Z

The whole time, throughout our fighting, no matter how mad you made me, or how much I cried because of what you said, no matter how bad it all got, I never took back anythin I said. Not a single I love you at all. Because I do love you. Even now, after you tricked me like you did, and seriously broke my heart, I still mean that I love you. And I will never take it back. At least one of us shows uncondiotional love. Because thats what pure love its, its unconditional. I love you so much that im always willing to forget the things either of us say or do. But you're not, so the love between us is there, it just seems to be different types. Im sorry you thought that caring about me was a waste. And yeah, Ill still be there.

I miss you, and I love you.

suicideinside @ 2004-09-29T13:33:00

2004-09-29T17:34:47Z

Just got done with all that cell crap. and mr.a is still up my ass about not handing in work.....that man has no right to say that his wife nags, because he's being one whiney biatch right now. Just because I lost my test, and he never wrote down my scor, im in taaaaaaaaaaaaaarubble.

Aaaaaaaaaaand I miss sean.